tezzy ancalima

the birthday week

2006-11-16T23:48:00.000-05:00

So this week I managed to disappoint:

My parents
My roommates
My coaches

I lost my:

Cell phone
License
Passport
Bentley ID

and overall I just in general sucked it up...

My presentation kinda blew, because I can't understand what the professor wants
The test was really hard, and
My paper was crap because I have no idea what the professor is talking about
I got two tickets on my mom's car, because it doesn't have a decal (EVEN THOUGH IT WAS IN THE FUCKING FARM LOT)
I missed practice, class, and work because I was puking

Being 21 sucks!

adam

2006-11-14T00:38:00.000-05:00

i'm excited to be twenty-one but i don't want to mess things up, because i love him.

apologetic

2006-05-02T11:25:00.000-04:00

if there's anything i hate, it's having people be mad at me...
i'm gonna kinda semi-disappear for a bit... get out of peoples' way

of course i'm pretty bad at being un-obtrusive.

spring day 2006

2006-04-28T12:06:00.000-04:00

already mapping out the day for spring day:

9AM: wake up, eat breakfast & shower.
9:45AM: game of 'ruit
10:00AM: kegs & eggs
12:00 noon: drunk
et cetera
continue until 2 AM

goal: 30 beers in 1 day

and since i'm a captain for next year, i have to be AT the pool at 8 AM to set up for the special olympics the next day.

ruminations

2006-04-13T02:02:00.000-04:00

Recent Google searches have led me to pages about people in my family that were truly impressive. Take for example Alex Osborn (my dad's mom's dad); he coined the term brainstorming, and started a successful advertising company BBDO. His wife's sister, Elizabeth Coatsworth wrote many children's books; some of those were my favorite growing up (specifically, my favorite is going for over $100 on Amazon). My grandfather Joe Bergantz helped to invent the atomic bomb, and there's a possibility that he might've even taught at MIT. My grandfather on my mom's side was the president of Keystone Corp. My father was an alternate for the Olympics in yachting.
...and what do I have to offer? What can I do to be a somebody?

And apparently, I'm insensitive. But I knew that already.

smallville addicted

2006-02-24T01:25:00.000-05:00

Chloe Sullivan: I want to let you in on a secret. I'm not who you think I am. In fact, my disguise is so thin, I'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. I'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. Sometimes I want to rip off this facade like I did at the Spring Formal, but I can't, because you'll get scared. And you'll run away again. So I decided that it's better to live with a lie than expose my true feelings.

...

Lana Lang: I feel like you've created this perfect picture of who I am... This might sound silly, but I have this fear that one day you'll finally get a good look at me and I'm going to disappoint you. That you'll see that I'm not as strong or as good as you think I am. And I'm afraid that it'll change the way you feel about me.

finally

2006-02-13T07:43:00.000-05:00

made top 6 in 3 meter... i got a medal! =) ... and i got to stand on the podium (kinda... it was actually the deck, but it would've been the podium if there was 6 steps)

so happy with the season, and very proud of my teammates =)

break-ups

2006-02-08T23:30:00.000-05:00

let's be honest. it sucks: knowing that there's something about you that someone doesn't like.

Monty Python's best scene

2005-12-18T23:55:00.000-05:00

King Arthur: You fight with the strength of many men, sir knight.
Black Knight: silence
King Arthur: I am Arthur, King of the Britons.
Black Knight: silence
King Arthur: I seek the finest and the bravest men in the land to join me in my Court at Camelot.
Black Knight: silence
King Arthur: You have proved yourself worthy, will you join me?
Black Knight: silence
King Arthur: You make me sad. So be it. Come, Patsy.
Black Knight: None shall pass.
King Arthur: What?
Black Knight: None shall pass.
King Arthur: I have no quarrel with you, good sir knight, but I must cross this bridge.
Black Knight: Then you shall die.
King Arthur: I command you, as king of the Britons, to stand aside.
Black Knight: I move for no man.
King Arthur: So be it!
Begin fighting.
King Arthur: (Chops off Black Knight's left arm.) Now stand aside, worthy adversary.
Black Knight: 'Tis but a scratch.
King Arthur: A scratch? Your arm's off.
Black Knight: No it isn't.
King Arthur: But what's that then?
Black Knight: I've had worse.
King Arthur: You lie.
Black Knight: C'mon, you pansy.
Begin fighting again.
King Arthur: (Chops off Black Knight's right arm.) Victory is mine. (Kneels down.) We thank thee, lord, that in thy mer—
Black Knight: (Kicks King Arthur over.) C'mon then.
King Arthur: What?
Black Knight: Have it, you.
King Arthur: You are indeed brave sir knight, but the fight is mine.
Black Knight: Ooo, had enough, aye?
King Arthur: Look, you stupid bastard, you've got no arms left.
Black Knight: Yes I have.
King Arthur: Look!
Black Knight: Just a flesh wound. (Kicks King Arthur.)
King Arthur: Look, stop that!
Black Knight: Chicken! Chicken!
King Arthur: Look I'll have your leg. Right! (Cuts off Black Knight's right leg.)
Black Knight: Right! I'll do you for that!
King Arthur: You'll what?!
Black Knight: Come here.
King Arthur: What're you gonna do, bleed on me?
Black Knight: I'm invincible!
King Arthur: You're a loony!
Black Knight: The Black Knight always triumphs! Have it, you!
King Arthur: Come on, then. (Chops off Black Knight's other leg.)
Black Knight: Looks around at his lack of appendages.
King Arthur: Alright, we'll call it a draw. Come, Patsy.
Black Knight: Oh, oh, I see, running away, aye? You yellow bastards, come back here and take what's comin' to you. I'll bite your legs off!

diving mentions

2005-12-12T01:21:00.000-05:00

Yeah, that's right! I've been mentioned FOUR times now:

1) 20-Nov-05 Bentley Invitational
2) 03-Dec-05 Wesleyan Invitational (They made two errors in that though: they spelled my name wrong and I came in second, not third on 1 meter.)
3) 09-Dec-05 NorthEast-10 Conference Championships at Southern Connecticut State University: Day 1
4) 10-Dec-05 NorthEast-10 Conference Championships at Southern Connecticut State University: Day 2

those bunnellians

2005-11-24T00:35:00.000-05:00

things i did today:
1) showered
2) saw harry potter
3) got a passport
4) cashed checks
5) baked a pie
6) had an amazing kick-ass time with the bunnellians (VERY LARGE GRIN)!

and the quote of the day by none other than alex dancho was:
the quintessential part of masturbating is flicking splooge everywhere

diving accomplishment

2005-11-20T23:11:00.000-05:00

For two years I've been hoping to have my name mentioned in the post-meet write-up.
And today was the day.
I threw (for the first time this season) five new dives, and didn't A) kill myself, or B) fail any dives!

Oh and Friday I got a paper back (one that I pulled an all-nighter for), and got an A- on it. The comments read, "This is great..."

I'm so awesome.

twenty

2005-11-14T14:37:00.000-05:00

of all of those coming of age things you're supposed to experience, this is the first one that i feel.

everything else, it's just one day older, one more new experience under your belt. but for some reason being now twenty i suddenly feel the weight of responsibility. graduation from college is nearing and soon all of those things that i've taken for granted because of my parents will become something for me. i think this is a culmination of my fears... because i'm no longer a teenager, i'm ... well i guess that's just it. i'm old.

bad mood

2005-10-15T22:17:00.000-04:00

I've been in a bad mood for the past two weeks, and I don't know why.

In other news, I got to hold Craig's little brother today (1 week old), and the kid is fucking adorable. By the way, the away message was just to see how many people would respond to something like that; I didn't actually drop his little brother.

omfg, i would kill myself if i did.

personality test

2005-10-07T15:54:00.000-04:00

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Accommodation	\|\|	10%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Artistic	\|\|	10%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	77%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|	16%
Female cliche	\|\|	10%

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In addition:

Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were very high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:

clean, likes large parties, outgoing, makes friends easily, optimistic, positive, social, high self control, traditional, assertive, rarely irritated, self revealing, open, finisher, high self concept, controlling, rarely worries, tough, likes to stand out, does not like to be alone, semi neat freak, fearless, dominant, trusting, organized, resolute, strong, practical, craves attention, adventurous, hard working, respects authority, brutally honest, realist, altruistic

multiple

2005-09-23T22:20:00.000-04:00

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scared

2005-06-22T00:38:00.000-04:00

i'm scared of the end of college, of leaving all my friends and going out into the world, of having to find a job (since it hasn't been successful so far this summer), of getting into grad school, of having a good major gpa, of not being able to get over my block in diving, of having to support myself, and of the future in general.

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spring day weekend.

2005-05-02T02:04:00.000-04:00

what a tremendously awesome weekend.
sean came up thursday night and left about an hour ago =)
and i must say that i couldn't ask for better roommates and friends. reading day in maine, coming up! get excited.

busted new years resolutions

2005-04-19T02:16:00.000-04:00

new years resolutions were never meant to stick:
times i've been in violation of this years: ~~||||~~

2005-04-07T14:20:00.000-04:00

at the very least you could fucking say hi to me.

asshole.

failing at life

2005-03-23T23:40:00.000-05:00

i've lost all motivation to do everything.
there isn't anything i'd rather being doing than homework, i just don't want to be doing homework. and i don't want to be working, and i don't want to be doing anything. it's not even like i'm exhausted and want to be sleeping, i just don't want to do ANYTHING, and it sucks, because i'm probably going to end up doing terribly in all of my classes because i'm such a lazy shit, and the worst part is that i really don't care that i'm going to do horribly, because i've pretty much already blown my shot at getting a 3.5 gpa. i most likely won't end up getting an internship for the summer, because i have no ambition. i probably won't make it through life since i don't have any ambition to do well at anything anymore. i want things to just be there and happen, and i constantly forget that i'm not "a natural" at anything. i really wish i wasn't "just average" in things. and i wish i had better people skills because somewhere along the way i lost them... or maybe i never had them, and just thought i did for a while. i'm so frustrated with myself for not being able to do anything. last year i could procrastinate and then once i started something i'd just finish it off quick, but now, i'll procrastinate look at it, and say "fuck it" and go to bed. and then wake up at 4 in the morning to do it. and it doesn't even come out good anymore. i'm so disappointed in myself, and i hate it. i need to find something to do that i love, because right now i don't love anything.

i love spring break!

2005-03-20T21:20:00.000-05:00

Spring Break in MAINE

Steve-o: It smells like pussy!
Chacha: No, it smells like low tide.

connie burning pasta not only once, but TWICE

::scratches crotch:: "i need some fucking pancakes"

"Yeah, Friday" "No, Thursday"

"Don't let the sunshine show."

Chacha: Jen, throw down!
Jen: What?
Chacha: I just threw down Jacks; you're up!
Jen: We're not playing cards.

yelling BODEY!

"we drove all the way up from florida"

SEXY-OFFs

"Throw your hands up!"

i'm peter pan!

2005-03-09T19:51:00.000-05:00

You scored as Peter Pan. Your alter ego is Peter Pan. You are a child at heart. Anything you believe is possible, and you never want to grow up.

Peter Pan

100%

Ariel

81%

Sleeping Beauty

69%

Goofy

63%

Cinderella

63%

Donald Duck

56%

Pinocchio

44%

Snow White

38%

Cruella De Ville

25%

The Beast

19%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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so much for new years resolutions

2005-03-07T20:33:00.000-05:00

we won new englands. the guys won by 2 points. AWESOME.
i came in 9th out of 21 on 1 meter, and 8th out of 12 on 3 meter (getting my best 11-dive score ever).
went home the weekend after that and went skiing at mohawk. it started snowing on our last run, that was fun.
went on the swim team ski trip this past weekend. AMAZING. skiing on saturday was gorgeous, it was sunny, the snow was beautiful... just awesome. =)
and now i'm swamped with work.
i'm working 11.5 hours / week at the Y.
classes are hard, and there's so much work for them =(
can't wait for spring break. some much needed rest, and then maine with some great people =)
i miss being a little kid =(
we need to start looking for an apartment for the summer. and i need to find an internship for the summer. aysh!

yup. definitely more guy than girl.

2005-02-23T00:44:00.000-05:00

Your Brain is 33.33% Female, 66.67% Male

You have a total boy brain

Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts

And while your emotions do sway you sometimes...

You never like to get feelings too involved

What Gender Is Your Brain?

3 meter NEW ENGLANDS

2005-02-02T08:20:00.000-05:00

i think that's what diving is all about: throwing dives you're terrified of in the last meet of the season in order to qualify by .45. getting up on that board, and knowing that the pressure's on. taking all the adrenaline that's rushing through you, and putting it into the dive. people who sky dive, or bungee jump, they get their rush; diving's my rush. as much as i feel like i'm sucking, i can't give that shit up. there's nothing like that feeling of knowing that you put everything aside and conquered your fucking fears, even if just for 30 seconds (or as long as it takes you to say to yourself, "cut the crap, get off the board"). i'll be excited when i have free time again, but there's nothing like the thrill of getting up there and knowing you have complete control over what happens, and doing something with it. so content.

alias

2005-01-30T21:11:00.000-05:00

Even if it is bad:
1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (Name of first pet + Street you live on): - Bessie Old Dike

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (Name of your favorite snack food + Grandfather’s first name): - Animal Crackers Bear

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (First word you see on your left + Favorite restaurant): - Aiwa Cosi's

4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice + Last Vacation Spot): - Garlic Salt Champlain

5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied): - Ebotabot Waltham

6. FLY GIRL ALIAS: (aka J.Lo) - (First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name): - E.Ber

7. ICON ALIAS: (Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen): - Brown Sugar Water

8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Went to High School): - Fawn Trumbull

9. BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink): - Animal Crackers SoCo

10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived): - Ann Old Dike

11. ROCK STAR ALIAS: (Favorite Candy + Last Name Of Favorite Musician): - Reese's Keenan

12. GREASE ALIAS: (Favorite Swear Word + Last Word of Favorite Movie): - Fuck King

two and one-half

2005-01-30T18:56:00.000-05:00

i did my 2 1/2 on 3 meter! and scored it! =D

meet sheets

2005-01-13T14:56:00.000-05:00

i have a link up with all my scores, and how every placed.

DIVING

reverse and a half

2005-01-11T23:30:00.000-05:00

first truly good day since november.
i got my reverse and a half =)
oh, how diving affects my overall mood.

back dives

2005-01-09T16:33:00.000-05:00

i'm such a waste of space. i should probably quit, so that my teammates can get more out of practice. cuz me standing on the end of the board, or just falling in is such a waste of their time and rick's. who really wants to deal with someone who is too much of a pussy to throw a fucking back dive, which i learned how to do 5 years ago. why even bother going to practice if i won't do shit, except throw stuff in a meet. if i can throw it in a meet, why can't i do it in practice? obviously i can do it, i'm just too much of a fucking baby to do it. and of course as soon as someone mentions "back dive" i get so worked up, that i can't possibly calm myself down; way to go, shithead.
tomorrow's a new day, no more dicking around.

thank you, pat. i miss you already =(

meet v. plymouth state.

2005-01-08T15:33:00.000-05:00

not bad.
no score lower than a 5 on 1 meter. 200.70. imagine how i would've scored if i didn't pussy out on the inward 1 1/2 and do a dive instead. 2.2 dd or 1.4 dd. oops.
and for only warming up 2 dives on 3 meter:
184.45 is pretty good. with the exception of my twister, no score lower than a 5 1/2. and then the twister was a 4.5, 3.5, 3.5. oh well. that's what happened when you have mental blocks during practices and warm-ups.
why is it that i always do better under pressure? i can't do a back dive unless it's in a meet. wtf is that? it's a BACK DIVE!?!?! not like a back 2 1/2. grr.
so all in all it was a pretty consistent meet. 2nd on 1 meter, and 4th on 3 meter.
and now it's time for pizza.

resolutions?

2005-01-06T17:37:00.000-05:00

In the year 2005 I resolve to:
Procrastinate more.

Get your resolution here

lucky

2005-01-03T23:52:00.000-05:00

driving home from the movies i was sitting at a light, waiting, and the green arrow in the lane next to me turned green, but somehow it registered to me that my light turned green, there was no one coming from any other direction so i went. well wouldn't you know that a policeman was the car right behind me. so i pulled over. "why did you do that?" "i'm so sorry, the other light went and i just wasn't ... i don't know, but i'm sorry" "you can't do that with a police car behind you" "sorry sir" "have a good night"
oops.
we think he just didn't want to stand in the rain.

boston

2005-01-02T22:08:00.000-05:00

i have absolutely amazing friends. all of them. =)

happy new year everyone!

i love that we drank champagne on the mass ave. bridge over the charles river =)

(i think that's probably the most disjointed sounding entry, but it makes sense to me)

wheel of time

2004-12-30T11:28:00.000-05:00

i'm too lazy to do one of those posts where i tell you everything i've been doing. so i'll just say, i'm enjoying being home =) i had a good christmas (white, of course (in buffalo)) and i'm doubly utterly obsessed with The Wheel of Time.

i changed my background on my laptop for the first time... to a map of the lands covered in tWoT. =)

i'm rereading all the books. and writing down every name that is mentioned. here i go with my lists again.

i took a quiz and it turns out (::winks::) that my ideal mate would be Logain. and i'm most like Elayne interesting.

i'm curious to find out who everyone else would be good mates with (so leave a comment).

scsu

2004-12-13T02:47:00.000-05:00

"The best athletes can fake confidence." ~ SD
and that's really what it's all about. you just have to get up on the board, smile, and say, i can do this.
1 fail dive on 1 meter. same reason i failed the first dive ever sophomore year at fciac's. got up there and said, don't think, just go, and got into the air and half couldn't remember what i was doing, and the other half, didn't have the lead-up to start the dive, so the whole muscle memory thing couldn't kick in. the weird thing is... twisters are my favorite category.
coach came on saturday, and saw most of my 3 meter.
rick said it wasn't fair, he did all the coaching, the working through my breakdowns, and all coach had to do was come and smile, and i was fine.
chacha and i hung out with the swimteam when we came back saturday night (for my second time this year) and had fun! when we got back to the room we had a water fight, and that was just awesome goodness.
denali likes popcorn.
and my paper is due in a few hours, and i have a paragraph.

"Eating chocolate before dinner will spoil your appetite."

2004-12-08T01:59:00.000-05:00

enough said.

i won!

2004-12-06T01:47:00.000-05:00

we ended the bet. stacy came in third with 3.6. chacha came in second with 5.8. and i won with 5.9. tight race.
we're doing it again with decent pictures. (cuz we don't have any GOOD ones)

the hilarity

2004-12-02T13:53:00.000-05:00

in the last few days of the week from hell, we're managing to find ways to entertain ourselves. chacha, stacy and i selected the ugliest pictures of each other we could find, and put them on hotornot.com. we're gonna see who wins... so far chacha's in the lead with 6.8, i'm in second with 4.3 and stacy's in third with 2.8. unfortunately, we realized while searching that we have no good pictures of ourselves.

dreaming

2004-11-25T15:15:00.000-05:00

i've had two nights of severly vivid dreams. personally, i love dreaming, but when you wake up in the morning and can't remember whether it actually happened or not, that's usually a problem. especially when you want with all your heart for the dream to be true, but it just isn't.
i went with leslie, scott and josue to see national treasure last night. it was good. i liked it. we finished off 2 large popcorns, the first one before the movie started, the second one, only part way into the movie. hurray for free refills. that's the first time we've actually gone to get the free refills. and for once we didn't put too much salt on. (go us!)
my parents tried to wake me up before 10 o'clock this morning. i was very mad. i let them know. my sister finally took all my covers about an hour later, so that i had no option. boooo. and then we polished silverware for almost an hour. i can't wait to eat tonight =)
this is the first year we're having thanksgiving dinner by ourselves in several years. the last time we did i think i was still in middle school. 17 lb. turkey for 4 of us. LEFTOVERS!
alex started making her christmas wishlist. it's hanging on the new fridge. i wanna hang mine on the fridge, but then i won't be able to update it.
i had a really good diving practice on tuesday. whenever i have a notsogood day i have a great practice. or maybe it's just that i really am doing better in diving... i got a 224 on 1 meter at the bentley invitational, placing fifth behind 3 SCSU people and katrina. 224! that's 20 points away from nationals. yikes! and i got a 204 on 3 meter. too bad i don't have the DD to qualify for NE's on 3 meter yet. but then again, this is early in the season, we haven't even had the NE-10 championships yet! let's hope we don't get snowed into the hotel this year.
good thing i didn't do my laundry at school. it would've cost me $11.25. that's ridiculous. my wireless stopped working again, bummer. i also have nowhere to put my computer, cuz apparently my mom and sister create disasters. guess i have to get it from somewhere.
scott and i are going to go to the gym on friday, i'm kinda feeling guilty about not going on monday or tuesday. it'll be like old times: (all summer). for a second there in the movie theater it felt like we never left.
i don't want to write my TWO economics papers. but i have to, and they have to be good, so that i don't fail econ. what a horrible class. i think my sister made me grilled cheese, and i haven't eaten yet today, so i'mma go get it, and eat.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
(1227 pm) (i'll post this when the internet starts working again.)

oh well

2004-11-23T13:37:00.000-05:00

you win some, you lose some. ='(

birthday

2004-11-14T23:51:00.000-05:00

i had a pretty damn good birthday.
went to umass dartmouth for a diving meet. i dove decently minus the breakdown during warm-ups. that was the end of a bad week of diving.
the coaches let me go early (with my parents) for my birthday. my parents checked into the hotel and then we came back to my room picked up ben and went out to dinner in the north end. very good food. we returned to my parents room for cake and presents (fun-fetti). i got danish cookies (the ones in the blue tin!), ESotSM, some hot chocolate mix, a new book, and a digital camera!
we came back to bentley (alex, ben and i) and proceded with celebration.
at midnight, my roommates had me come back to the room, and cake was presented to lisa and i (the trade-off of birthdays).
i took lots of pictures with my new camera =)
i woke up with a stuffy nose, and preceded to take a 6.5 hour nap, and now i'm (supposed to be) working on homework.

studying

2004-11-12T13:11:00.000-05:00

i like that jen yells at me for not studying more for my tests.
i don't like that i try to make excuses.
i don't like that i actually do feel like i've studied well, and still do shitty, because i don't understand it.

i LOVE that is SNOWING!!!

updated dante's inferno test

2004-11-07T15:40:00.000-05:00

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's" Inferno Hell Test

compare to the old one

first meet.

2004-11-07T11:02:00.000-05:00

first meet vs. lemoyne was very successful for divers. i did well. diving's awesome cuz it gives me a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day (usually)

1 meter voluntary
103B 7 6' 6
201C 6 5' 5'
301C 6' 5' 6
401C 5' 5' 5'
5122D 6' 6' 6'
147.60

1 meter optional
104C 5' 6'
203C 5 4'
302C 6' 5'
403C 4' 5
5124D 5 5
162.75

total 310.35

so lazy?

2004-11-04T13:42:00.000-05:00

yep. i'm lazy so i never update.
bentley got added to facebook. wahoo
i started working on monday, a kid threw up, and a mentally challenged (or whatever the PC term is nowadays) person couldn't keep his pants on. so a semi-exciting first day. i work again today.
bush got re-elected. good stuff. even though my vote really didn't count towards him, since CT went democratic.
ben is awesome. i'm so happy. =)
my advisor took forever to get back to me, but i finally met with her today. and this is what i determined.

declaring my major before my registration time on friday, nov. 12.
taking gb202 as a wintersession (over doubles, yes. i'm gonna be wicked stressed and tired.)
taking my last two fr./so. general requirements: (expos. 201 and macro-economics) and taking my first two major courses (along with an arts and sciences elective).
looking for an internship for the summer around boston. finding an apartment for the summer (around boston), and taking gb301 as an evening class over the summer.
and with that i'll be an entire semester ahead of schedule.
graduating fall '06. (but i'll still be eligible for diving for the rest of the season, hence the 5-year program)
beginning 5-year program (grad. school). i'll be done with schooling by fall '07.
and then out into the world.

holy shit.

got my back-and-a-half's, and my doubles are looking better. i just wish i had more time to get my reverse-and-a-half's, and really good inward 1 1/2's, so we could kick LeMoyne square in the ass. but there's still time... scsu. (ne-10's)

ben, sox, and diving.

2004-10-30T01:00:00.000-04:00

i got a new boyfriend =)
the sox won the world series.
the parade's tomorrow. ben's going urban camping tonight. i wish i were going, but i can't cuz of diving. there's a meet tomorrow morning, but they aren't bringing divers, so we're not competing, but we need to go in for practice tomorrow... we asked if we could go in at 3, but noooo, we can't. we have to go at 7.30. i'm pissed. i'm missing a once-in-a-lifetime event for PRACTICE. but i got my twister back on 3-meter today. that was good.
i'm going to sleep now.

on the many things that can lead to imperfection.

2004-10-21T20:28:00.000-04:00

STXLAX888 (8:21:29 PM): im almost perfect
simply tezzy (8:21:35 PM): almost?
STXLAX888 (8:21:44 PM): no ones perfect
simply tezzy (8:21:51 PM): so then what's wrong with you?
STXLAX888 (8:21:59 PM): i have flat feet

that's it.

red sox.

2004-10-20T17:10:00.000-04:00

RED SOX

beware of sponges.

2004-10-13T19:49:00.000-04:00

What kind of disease are you?

tezzy:

tezzy is caused by sponges.

tezzy: A case of tezzy will cause you to seek out beanie babies as ammunition for a 'bean-induced death ray'.
The only way to cure tezzy is to stick your head in a microwave set to 'high.'

mario kart

2004-10-12T01:33:00.000-04:00

we are such mario kart addicts!

messages.

2004-10-09T21:41:00.000-04:00

Pat3Cobra (9:38:41 PM): you did leave a message last night
simply tezzy (9:38:55 PM): ::laughs::
Pat3Cobra (9:39:00 PM): you were definetly drunk
simply tezzy (9:39:00 PM): what did we say?
Pat3Cobra (9:39:32 PM): "hi this is tezzy, and leslie calling from boston. goodbye"

they missed the shuttle.

2004-10-08T01:09:00.000-04:00

picked up ally & stacy, and had to park in the farm lot. stacy scared us walking back to the dorm saying that it was like sleepy hollow, and the headless horseman was gonna come, and we got scared and ran, and laughed, and then the people sitting outside our dorm asked what was up, and we said we were scared of the dark. and then ally's mail was in my mailbox, and she's been looking for it for days, but i haven't checked my mailbox in a couple days, so she was happy that she got her mail, and i got my absentee ballot in the mail, so now i feel special. the end. good night.

update.

2004-10-06T23:20:00.000-04:00

chris came up 2 weekends ago. i puked on him. (after a power hour, several double shots of jaegermiester (sp?) & goldschlager (sp?), and some beruit.) the rest of the weekend was chill, though. it was so nice to see my boy.
last weekend i went home, went straight to my sister's volleyball game. had some dinner (ARTICHOKES) with the family, and i think that was it. saturday morning my mom and i went shopping... ALL DAY for business suits. it's funny. looking professional. went to bj's. (and boughts some plastic cups (my mom asked what they were for, and i started explaining beruit to her, she said she'd rather not have asked, and that she'd "done worse" before.)) went to the classic. saw my jillie & my p. and a bunch of other people that i haven't seen in two years, which was kinda nice. the pit is awesome this year. imagine that: get a pit instructor and the pit gets better! took the jillie & the p out to the monroe diner (with alex too), and then we all came back to my house and they slept over. after they left the next morning, dad and i went grocery shopping. i have an awesome family. =) (and that wrapped up my "alexjilliep weekend")
i got a job. guarding at the waltham Y. i make $9.50 / hour and $10.50 / hour if i open or close. mmm money.
ear infections suck. ass. i'm physically exhausted from circuits, diving, and then swimming today. and that's not even going into the fact that i haven't been getting lots of sleep because every day this week i've had a test or quiz. (including tomorrow... which i should be studying for). but this weekend, leslie's coming up. and it'll be a nice long relaxing weekend. =)

next time

2004-09-23T22:18:00.000-04:00

next time, i'm gonna do the 100 things like p.

saggy boobs.

2004-09-20T22:46:00.000-04:00

simply tezzy: i know, i'm gonna have saggy boobs in a day
...
slrsaturn4: yeah, that's how mine'll be
slrsaturn4: dragging behind me on the floor
simply tezzy: i hope when i call you to tell you about my dentures you trip over your boobs going to get the phone
slrsaturn4: hahahahahaha
slrsaturn4: well, it won't matter, cause you'll be senile by then and will probably have forgotten what boobs are
simply tezzy: that's cuz i won't have any to remind me.
slrsaturn4: exactly! at least you've accepted your fate.

music.

2004-09-19T23:16:00.000-04:00

it think it's strange that when people cry during movies it isn't ever during a silent part, it's the part with the strings, and sappy music. maybe it's strong music, but it always evokes the same emotion. you can watch someone and they'll say the message is sweet, but they're not crying over the message, it's the music. so why is it that our sense of hear can make us cry?
and then there are the songs that cheer you up, no matter what. maybe because i remember hearing them when i was younger, and knowing that they made me happy then.

the christmas lights are always on.

2004-09-16T17:36:00.000-04:00

i don't think we ever turn our christmas lights off. and i like it.
aim fucked up for a couple days, but i think i have it working now. i sure hope so, cuz that was a pain in my ass!
ally and i took out the water guns yesterday and ambushed people and it was amazing!
one more day of classes for the week.
chris comes up next friday. +D

on a wednesday night?!

2004-09-09T13:43:00.000-04:00

drinking on a wednesday night?!
oh yes, this year is gonna be loads of fun. just gotta make sure we remember to do our work as well.
ally and i went shopping yesterday. i returned my mouse, and then bought a bra for $8. EIGHT DOLLARS!
i went and dove with katrina. may to september is a long time to be off the boards.
ended the night with some beruit and flip cup.
somehow i kicked chacha in the head.

oops.

2004-09-07T14:37:00.000-04:00

tip to all people starting classes. check your clock. make sure that your alarm and clock have am and pm coordinated. yep. you guessed it. i slept through my first class, not because i slept through my alarm, but because my alarm didn't go off. and wouldn't for another 12 hours. but i made it to my second class. oops.

starting the year off right.

2004-09-06T19:42:00.000-04:00

stacy, jen and connie were here when i arrived. got the room most of the way set up (after pacing around the HUMONGOUS room for a while). lisa arrived, and we went to target and linens 'n' things for bathroom mats, etc. lisa lost her id after being here for 2 hours. but jen found it in her laundry. oh, lisa. ally got here while we were still out. beer cooked dinner for us all. we took down the closet door. and started the year off right with a good game of beruit. decorating is well under way. my defective mouse has been replaced. we(con018) watched fat people on tv with chacha and tiff. good stuff.
friday night, divers were at coach's. first thing mokey says to me, after his mom leaves. "did you grow boobs?" thanks a lot, kid. ;-P
saw chris friday and saturday (before i came up to school). =)

why the bunnell guys are the best.

2004-08-31T14:39:00.000-04:00

we walked into alex(boy)'s house. and i jumped on his bed. then alex(girl), p and i searched through alex(boy)'s cupboards, etc. looking for pots. we make chicken noodle soup, and then another chicken soup with meatballs. and then we found ramen noodles for aaron. the vegetarian kind. but they weren't where they used to be, so we looked in the bathroom. and the closets. and then p couldn't go in his mom's room cuz the bed was unmade. but the ramen noodles were in there. so aa got soup too. and he rode his bike to get milk. and we had strawberry milk. and p got some in her soup. and it was gross. and the finger puppets were on the flowers. and we drove to get ice cream, but there wasn't any. and we drove to todd's so alex(boy) could get jewel cases. and no one was home. and the door was locked. but not the back door. so we went in and wore todd's clothing. aa rode his bike back over to baskin robbins. alex(boy) took a shower. p dressed in alex(boy)'s boy scout clothing. p and i got all four legs into alex(boy)'s pants. we got ice cream. and ate it on the bench. and p's shoe was in my pants. but she couldn't see it. even though she was kicking my ankle, and that's where it was.
we broke into todd's house! and took a picture with us in his clothing.
i love that group.
and that's why the bunnell guys are the best.

p's sweet 16

2004-08-30T23:29:00.001-04:00

p's party was tonight. it was lots of fun. dancing, fighting with frosting. et cetera.
i saw mokey (about time!)
and several bunnell guys: alex, aaron, brian and winged.
and i saw jillie and p.
i had a great summer, but i really didn't see much of any of those people, which is sad, because last summer i spent the majority of my time with them. people that make me laugh are the best.
and my little ones (jillie and p) are growing up! 16!
i always say i'm gonna see people when i'm up at school, esp. people like aaron, and scott and sarah who are all in boston, but i think i saw each of them twice the entire year. this year, i really am going to make an effort. no more of this, oh yeah, let's do something sometime.

mystic

2004-08-29T20:54:00.000-04:00

woke up. early.
drove all the way to mystic. listening to the beatles with carly, leslie and mal. (stopped at a tourist info stop to get maps of mystic).
carly: "we can't know what it's like to not be us. but to other people, normal people, they see this group of girls blow in the door, grab everything, laugh uncontrollably, take a ton of pictures, and blow back out like a hurricane or natural disaster."
found olde mystick village. went into all the little shops. bought a pound of fudge. went into more shops. 1/2 a pound of fudge disappeared. in my belly.
drove home in lovely traffic while listening to beatles. again. listened to eight days a week 3 times on the way home. oh man, i love us. i'm gonna miss this.
BUT I'M SO EXCITED FOR THIS COMING YEAR TOO!!! COPLEY NORTH 018 baby!!!

lake champlain

2004-08-27T21:57:00.000-04:00

the worst part of being on a boat is the sea legs... and almost falling over every time you close your eyes (back on land). but it was a very good vacation!

8.22.04 Day 1 0545-2345
we departed ct and made an uncharacteristic 5 pit stops on the way up to burlington, vt.
alex and i bought eggs, milk and salt from a local convenience store.
we sailed straight across from burlington, vermont to willsboro, ny without having to tack a single time going as fast as 7 knots. (the boat sailed much better than the one in the carribean. although the sails weren't perfect quality, to say the least.)
we anchored in the bay for the night.
fed a grouping of 8+ ducks. and after reading for a while, another group of 28 ducks came by looking for handouts (saltines).
after dinner, i drank some rum and hot chocolate with my parents... which was kinda weird, cuz i really haven't drinken with them before.
and the water pressure pump failed.

8.23.04 Day 2 0900-2300
we went over to the marina, and called the charter company to have them fix the water pressure pump.
a guy installed the pump, and while waiting, i jumped in the water, which just so happened to be 72 degrees (on the surface). so cold. needless to say, i got right back out and that was that.
we sailed despite forecasts of rain and t-storms.
when the huge black clouds were practically overhead, we pulled into a cove, and alex and i dug out the foul weather gear. just in time. we got down the sails, and seconds later the skies opened.
the anchor wouldn't grab, and by the time if finally did the rain had stopped
to ease my mother's fears of drifting away, dad and alex took out the dinghy and tied a stern line to shore. dad slipped getting onto shore, and we all laughed, because it was quite comical. really, it was.

8.24.04 Day 3 0800-2330
woke up -- sailed to Essex, NY all day bundled in down comforters, and layers of clothing (arrived around 1500)
showered on land, which was quite a treat (rather than showering off the stern)
walked around the town of essex (est. 1810 apparently) and found a store selling COTTON CANDY ICE CREAM!!!!!
ate dinner at The Rudder Club
SOOOO COLD!

8.25.04 Day 4 0815-0100
breakfast (blueberry pancakes at an "eatery")
showered on land again, before leaving the marina
nice long sail, going south before coming back downwind to anchor in willsboro bay again.
i sailed.
gorgeous weather: warm, sunny, nice wind. even got some sun... at least i didn't get burnt.
ate dinner while listening to the beatles
played poker and blackjack with family.
finished the book i was reading.

8.26.04 Day 5 0845-2230
woke up, sailed to valcour island (again) 20 mile/hour winds
hiked 3.7 miles around the island
mom called me an idiot after telling me a story about how when i was younger i used to ride my plastic tricycle down the driveway into the garage door, go flying over the handlebars, grin really big, and run back to the top of the driveway and do it again.

8.27.04 Day 6 0745-2000
sailed upwind in 25 mile/hour winds. i think i would've been scared if i didn't know/trust that my dad is a great sailor.
pumped out/re-fueled in shelbourne bay.
sailed back up to burlington to return the boat, and drove home.

leaving

2004-08-19T10:58:00.000-04:00

everybody's leaving.
chris left on tuesday. pat left this morning. i'm gonna go on vacation for a week, and by the time i come back, josh is gonna be gone, and i think a couple more people will also be gone =(
this is the worst part about going back to school. is everyone leaving. all in all it's been, well i can't say it's been a good summer, cuz it hasn't, it's been an amazing summer. but somehow in the 4 months that i was home, time managed to slip through my fingers. i feel as though this vacation was only a month long. there's so much more i wanted to do, so many more people i wanted to see. i had an amazing time with "the regulars" but i feel neglective in my time spent with many of my other friends. and i apologize for that.
i'm kinda bummed out, because last day of finals is december 23rd, and i go back to school for doubles a little over a week later. so by the time i get up to buffalo, i'll have almost no time at home for friends during that break.
ah well, what happens happens, and i won't let that get in my way of having a kick ass time at school this year. oh man, am i excited! copley north 018 is going to be the best room ever. i'm serious.
i should start packing... soon.

wisdom teeth

2004-08-17T00:30:00.000-04:00

i have the best friends ever.
first chris came over, and sat with me for a while. and then my other friend's drove to fairfield to get me cotton candy ice cream. unfortunately they didn't sell it anymore, but the fact that they stopped down there to get some is awesome.
thanks guys. you really are the best.

and my left cheek is uber puffy, but i'm not in too much pain, just drugged up.

ongoings

2004-08-14T21:01:00.000-04:00

met me an awesome guy. in a fight. at a toga party.
work's done for the summer. it was definitely the best job ever! i think i'll continue to have camp songs running through my head for the rest of forever. definitely some awesome people there. and then there's the girl that we dumped water on, so she called in sick for the last day of work. for once i wasn't late for everything. ryan and i were actually early every day.
got my first ticket on tuesday morning on the way to work. oops. 47 in a 25. $178. kinda sucks. oh well.
chris goes back down to VA monday or tuesday =(
i get my wisdom teeth out on monday, i'm gonna be on all sorts of drugs 8)
hurray! i don't have to put on a 1-piece suit for a whole month!
going on a boat on lake champlain for a week, very soon.
going back to school very soon. wahoo! i'm so excited! this year is going to be AMAZING!

candy

2004-07-29T17:25:00.000-04:00

my mommy got a tub of candies. and they were all individually wrapped. i thought, "well what a good idea. now i won't eat so many, cuz i'll be lazy." wrong. i eat just as many, it just takes me longer, and creates a lot more garbage.

king arthur

2004-07-16T20:18:00.000-04:00

i saw king arthur last night. it was awesome, i enjoyed it immensely. i thought it was awesome, the way everything was shed in a new light. it makes so much sense how stories/a legend could be built out of it. merlin had superior wisdom, technology (catapults), etc. so he would seem magical. instead of the traditional merlin has "magical" powers. even if you think about it, wisdom/intelligence in itself is a magical power. it can place you in a position of advantage. but that's an entirely different subject.
since i took that history of medieval west class, i know that arthur (if he did so exist) was around in the 5th century (or around there), and the stories/legends didn't emerge until the 12th century from the monasteries. so it makes much more sense that legends of a man everything backing him, would become aggrandized.

doubtful of the amount of popcorn we could consume, scott and i bought a large popcorn (which offers free refills) just to see if it was possible to finish the whole thing and get free refills. well, we never got up to get the refill, but we were able to finish the bag between the two of us in the first 15 minutes of the movie.

i'm slacking on the book reading... since i've been working (which btw, is awesome. we made volcanoes in the sand today)
but i'm up to 11 books for the summer (and yes, they're on average 700 pgs)

i'm so proud of myself too.. i've been to the gym 5 times in the past week! =)

telemarketer

2004-07-08T20:32:00.000-04:00

alex: hello?
telemarketer: hi, your parents have been selected for a vacation.
alex: do kids get to come?
telemarketer: ...no
alex: ok. ::CLICK::

and leslie posted her pictures.

awesome day

2004-07-07T00:36:00.000-04:00

went to work. got paid to build sandcastles. awesome.
came home, jumped in the lake, refreshing, awesome.
went to the gym with scott, got stronger? awesome.
went to leslie's, had a fight with flour. awesome.
ate raw cookie dough, a lot. awesome.
ate baked cookies, a lot. awesome.
watched fear and loathing in los vegas. johnny depp. awesome.
fell asleep on leslie's couch. awesome.
sang camp songs with carly. awesome.
came home, mom had already put all my clothes in the drier. awesome.
going to sleep soon. awesome.

patrick

2004-07-05T20:52:00.000-04:00

my patrick comes home in 13 days!
i can't wait until pat comes home from california.. it just doesn't seem right without pat here.
i haven't seen pat since 2003!

24-hour trip to buffalo

2004-07-04T21:18:00.000-04:00

5.15 my parents woke me up, and we were on the road to buffalo by 5.45.
we stopped at aunt barbie's and uncle jack's. and i got to see my sister. (who's been at diving camp in buffalo for the week). had a small lunch, and then went to pick up cheryl. we saw alec and cheryl's house for the first times since they moved in about 5 years ago. it looks amazing. it's all painted and has victorian-style decorations to go along with the 1920ish house. and or course the six cats. i love that my cousin and his wife take in cats. =)
there was no traffic on the peace bridge, i was shocked. usually 4th of july weekend is ridiculous.
we got a chance to stop at olford's (now valu-mart), and i pushed around the little cart. how i love the little carts. and they didn't have the chocolate rosebuds in a bin!! ::gasp:: but we did find some in a box, and we got some pepperrettes (mini pepperonis).
continued on up to the point. we got to see ALL the cousins!!! Kristin came up from DC (with Byron), BJ was around, and Dana was home from California. We went for a walk past the lighthouse over to the West Shore (where i acquired several bugbites), got some good pictures of "the cousins". When we got back the rest of the Bergantz family arrived, including the dogs (Frodo managed to lose his ball several times, and round a bunch of people up to search for it with him). Dana showed everyone her portfolio, and then when asked about her boyfriend, whipped out the pictures from her back pocket. only dana. when we go to buffalo for christmas this year, we'll get to meet Lee. I'm really amazed at how old everyone's gotten. Kristin's got a job, and BJ's going back to school at Brown, and Dana's got a year and a couple months left. Yikes! And Dana talking about marriage, wow.
it was nice to get our annual "talk" with Dana. and it was awesome to see EVERYBODY (minus Bryn, but i think it's been 10 years since i saw bryn)
and what's a bergantz get-together without doing something stupid, like running outside, and staring at the moon as it rose. who does that?
When I dropped Marnie off we drove by the Gatehouse. I miss it. they got rid of the garden both in front of and behind the house, and took down some of the bushes, and put a walkway across the lawn, and I heard they changed the inside of the house even more. It makes me so sad. It was such an ingrained part of my memory for so long. And again no traffic crossing back over the Peace Bridge.
Slept at Aunt Barbie and Uncle Jack's. Departed and went over the the Buffalo Yacht Club.
Uncle Billy, Judy, and Chicki were all there. and we took out Bear (the boat), not expecting to find any wind. after getting out of the channel we picked up some wind, and sailed. It was a nice sail. We spread the last of Grandbear and GrandmaJane's ashes in Lake Erie. It's a shame they couldn't've been there for the sail. Coming back in, I resumed my spot on the bow of the boat, same as every time. It's so hard to let traditions go.
We left around 2. I drove for several hours, and my sister drove the last leg of the trip home. I wish family was closer.

incubus concert

2004-06-27T15:35:00.000-04:00

so i went to my first concert ever =). and it was awesome. i really absolutely love incubus, they're so amazing. drum solo was ridiculous. whole concert was just crazy goodness. from start (pistola) to finish (the warmth). shit son, that was awesome. +D
had a great time with ally too. i'm so excited for next year! it's gonna be nuts. YEAH! COPLEY NORTH 018!
food is definitely one of my top/biggest passions. =)
and now i have to do laundry.
cuz i have dirty clothing.

CHICKEN!

2004-06-22T21:44:00.000-04:00

so i said to my dog, "CHICKEN! CHICKEN!" kinda like in monty python, when he's fighting the guy, and kicking and saying "CHICKEN CHICKEN!!" and then he came running and i threw my dog some chicken, which was burnt, frozen, and then remicrowaved. gross. but i ate some oreos with my chicken. then went with the dogs into the yard to pee. but i didn't pee in the yard. and then an oreo broke in my mouth, and i was sad, and then it was all done. and i'm wired right now.
and the bunnellians are all gradumalated. including aaron, even though he went to college for a year.
and i started work yesterday, and i like it. and my sister still isn't done with school, what a bummer.
that's the first time since i've been home that i've seen the bunnellians, and it makes me sad =( cuz they're crazy good awesomeness =)
i'm very happy about the oreos that i just ate
very happy.
the end.

first swim of the year!

2004-06-15T16:58:00.000-04:00

my sister came into the room and demanded that i get off my ass and go out on the kayak with her.
so i went. and we paddled out to the middle of the lake, and then... we went in! that's my first swim in the lake of the year. the top is warm enough, but if you go down 7 feet it gets cold... but, it doesn't really matter, because i swam in the lake today =)

night out.

2004-06-15T11:31:00.000-04:00

on the way to archie moore's:
Carly: Ok, we have to bang a u-ey and turn around.
Leslie: But it's ok, 'cause it says that in the directions!
Laura: wow... I can't believe it actually says that in the directions!

while eating dinner:
Carly: AAAH! Leslie, you throw salt over your shoulder, not pour it in your hair!
(poor waiter, having to deal with the spilt water, etc.)

and then after dinner, at carly's, scott and i were undefeated in pool! yeah, us!

books

2004-06-14T13:09:00.000-04:00

guess who found a new bookstore and got 3 books for $12.
and i registered to vote today =)
and i have to leave for new canaan in 30 minutes.

oh. right. so my plan for the summer. M-F wake up at 6ish (exact time: TBD). leave for new canaan at 6.30. arrive in new canaan around 7.30. lift/work-out for appoximately an hour. shower? work 9-??? (not sure of the time yet). drive home in rush-hours traffic. and then ____(fill in the blank)____.

and i balanced my checkbook today (that was 5 months overdue)

oh oh! and guess what?!
tuesday, rather TOMORROW!, my mom picks up her new car (volvo station wagon)... AND the mazda6 becomes mine =) yayayyay!
we're keeping the minivan (cuz volvo would only offer $1800 for it (seeing as it has 9X,XXX miles (not sure of the exact amount)).) so alex will learn to drive on that. and then come october when she gets her license she'll get her own car. so yes. we will have 5 cars in our driveway/garage tomorrow night. ::laughs::

I WANT NICE WEATHER! i still haven't been swimming in the lake yet, and it makes me sad!

and that's about it.

i just like fire

2004-06-12T13:30:00.000-04:00

i'm not a pyro, i just like fire. went to malley's for her bonfire last night. and we burned old school books and papers, etc. and then we made s'mores. excellence. but really, fires are amazing. there's something slightly mesmerizing about watching the flames lick the cardboard, and shrivel it, and turn to black.
then again, i think half of the beauty of camp-/bon-fires is spending hours with awesome people.

summer work

2004-06-08T14:48:00.000-04:00

i decided that i'm going to work in new canaan, lifeguarding for a camp. i'll make $2240 for the summer. and because the camp is through the new canaan Y, i can go early (to avoid rush hours traffic) and lift. and i might possibly be able to use the boards as well, which as i recall are pretty good boards =)
yay i have a job =)

green!

2004-05-30T13:04:00.000-04:00

1.)Copy and paste this into your journal:
<*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b> <*/font>
2.)Eliminate the asterisks
3.)See what color you are

simplytezzy
tezzyancalima

soothing.

2004-05-29T16:57:00.000-04:00

i love the rocking of a boat, and the swinging of a hammock. so soothing.
i was on the swingset at tashua last night. we walked from jillie's house, and swang on the swings. and it was awesome. and then i swung on the hammock and finished reading my 12th book so far this year. and i love how the trumbull library never has the second book in a series. so i went and bought it at waldenbooks. and the smell of freshly cut grass is awesome, but i need to go take some claritin.

what kind of beer are you?

2004-05-28T17:39:00.000-04:00

BUD LIGHT: You're laid back and low maintenance - a
people-person, who wants everyone else to be
having as much fun as you are. You make
friends and jokes easily, and though you're
definitely a smart ass, you're good-natured.
Every man's beer for everyone's friend.

The Greatest Beer Quiz, ever!
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johnny depp.

2004-05-27T00:32:00.000-04:00

i am so definitely going to vacuum my bed.
full vacuum cleaner.
standing on bed.
awesome!

nostalgia.

2004-05-24T21:54:00.000-04:00

sunday night we went over to old family friends house. my sister and i grew up with the sullivans, every other week. dinner and fun. sometimes it was outside playing "Oregon Trail" other times it was dressing up in tutus and pig snouts and parading in front of our parents (note: alex & i, and 3 guys). the last time we saw them was my freshman year. we were at their house for the superbowl.
so 4.30 on sunday we drove over to shelton and ate dinner with the sullivans, and laughed at all the crazy things we've done.

we decided to sell the trampoline yesterday. we got it in october, when i was in 1st grade. i remember the "two people at a time" rule. and backflips in the rain with daisy. and "das wars." and eating dinner with the entire gymnastics team on it. and siting there with 11+ other people, just enjoying the summer. it had a good life. i'm gonna go take my last few bounces, before it goes too.

my roomies for next year are gonna/already do kick ass.

quizzes to amuse

2004-05-21T12:51:00.000-04:00

stole some quizzes from jen.

My personality is rated 32/50.
What does that mean?
Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.What is yours?quiz by midgetfarm.com

WORSHIP! You're inner Bombshell is the beautiful Audrey
Hepburn. Like her you've been blessed with a "certain something"
that no one could describe accurately. You are more reserved
than other bombshells, and that shows in your gentle, graceful
nature. You like doing things for other people and love volunteering
for your favorite charity. Yours is a rare gift in this day and age.
You don't need to show a lot of skin to be sexy, all you need is your
eyes. To see Audrey at the top of her game watch the movie
"Breakfast at Tiffanys".

Who is your inner bombshell?
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(not quite sure about that reserved part... ;-P )

Edit: Here's one more.

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:	Strength
In a survival situation, you:	Cleverly trick your attacker
Your hidden talent is:	Resourcefulness
Your gift is:	Vast knowledge
In groups, you:	Observe others' behaviour
Your best quality is:	Your abundant energy
Your weakness is:	Your passivity

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

i'm really angry that the internet keeps going down. it makes me very angry, "mary, i'm getting very angry"

briecheese

2004-05-20T10:45:00.000-04:00

so i forgot to mention yesterday that after Troy we went to cosi's (mal, josh, laura, leslie and me). yes we got s'mores, and yes, i ate an entire wedge of brie cheese by myself, SOOOO good!
sometimes i wish the world was made out of cheese. cheese is without a doubt the best food group evar! you can put cheese on basically everything, i mean: creamCHEESE tastes good on chocolate chip cookies. parmesean cheese on EVERYTHING!
i think i'll have cheese on my waffles this morning.

thanks!

2004-05-19T22:11:00.000-04:00

thanks for the book suggestions! i appreciate it! i think i have enough to get me through the next year and a half ;-P (but you can continue suggesting them if you read a new book and think it's really good.)

saw Troy yesterday, i don't understand how people can NOT like it. it's SOO good. favorite quote, because it's so true: "sometimes you have to follow to lead" (from sean bean to brad pitt)

which reminds me of my list of movies that i wanna see: harry potter, king arthur, spiderman 2, shrek 2 ... i think the list goes on, i can't remember.

and my kick ass princess:

You are Ariel from The Little Mermaid!

What Disney Princess are you?
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my psychiatrist.

2004-05-14T23:14:00.000-04:00

raina and i live synchronized lives. no question about it. everytime she has an issue with a guy either i just had that SAME issue, or currently am dealing with the situation, and vice versa. raina and leslie were 2 of my 4 best friends that i made in 6th grade. and they're the two that no matter what are always there for me, as i can hope i will always be there for them.
i love the fact that raina is so strong, all the time. she can carry the weight of the world on her shoulders. i remember absolutely idolizing raina in middle school. i still think she's the awesome, cuz she understands me like no one else.
i can't remember if it was p or jillie, but one of them made a list of people that they were "Slap-Free" from. raina is definitely on that list! (as are leslie, jillie, p, and pat) thanks guys =)

btw, i'm taking any suggestions for a new series of books to read. if you've read a series of fantasy/sci-fi books that you'd recommend, let me know!

for your amusement. or mine.

2004-05-14T22:19:00.000-04:00

Your Homocidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

AOL Trial CDs

Your Favorite Target:

Eskimoes

Your Kill Count:

1,887,092,433

Your Battle Cry:

"Yo mama!"

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$237,354,740,103,580

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 58%

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more conversation funness

2004-05-13T23:24:00.000-04:00

keep in mind that leslie is less than a month older than me:

simply tezzy (11:15:36 PM): btw, today's my 1/2 birthday!
simply tezzy (11:15:41 PM): ::throws confetti::
simply tezzy (11:15:48 PM): ::sings to self::
simply tezzy (11:15:52 PM): ::shuts up::
slrsaturn4 (11:16:05 PM): hahaha
slrsaturn4 (11:16:10 PM): yay, you youngster :-P
slrsaturn4 (11:16:42 PM): *sings to tezzy*
slrsaturn4 (11:16:51 PM): *is too lazy to actually type out the birthday song*
simply tezzy (11:17:57 PM): hey! i wouldn't be calling me a youngster now
simply tezzy (11:18:10 PM): well, of course i wouldn't
simply tezzy (11:18:14 PM): but if i were you, i wouldn't
slrsaturn4 (11:19:18 PM): but you're not me, so therefore, maybe i would
slrsaturn4 (11:19:25 PM): i think i'm just confused now.
simply tezzy (11:20:07 PM): yeah
simply tezzy (11:20:18 PM): tha'ts what happens with age.. you become senile. you old beast
simply tezzy (11:20:19 PM): ;-P

i finished Shadow Puppets last night. Book total = 10. I so definitely think that the people of Path (in Xenocide) should be the descendants of Bean and Petra.

nothing tops a conversation with p

2004-05-12T20:45:00.000-04:00

Edit: I just realized this is post number 100 +D (couldn't be a better number 100)

conduit825 (8:07:38 PM): hey hey
simply tezzy (8:08:07 PM): heyhey!
conduit825 (8:08:11 PM): how did dinner come out?
simply tezzy (8:08:22 PM): not too shabby
conduit825 (8:08:27 PM): sweet
simply tezzy (8:10:04 PM): very garlic-y though
simply tezzy (8:10:05 PM): +DDD
conduit825 (8:10:09 PM): i like garlic
simply tezzy (8:10:14 PM): i LOVE garlic
simply tezzy (8:10:21 PM): (that's an understatement)
conduit825 (8:10:25 PM): I like to put garlic on my pizza
conduit825 (8:10:34 PM): ESPECIALLY white pizza
simply tezzy (8:10:35 PM): i like to put garlic on my toes and lick it off
conduit825 (8:10:38 PM): LOL
simply tezzy (8:10:40 PM): actually, i'm just kidding about that
conduit825 (8:10:41 PM): hahahahahaha
conduit825 (8:10:47 PM): you will be quoted
simply tezzy (8:10:53 PM): LOL
conduit825 (8:11:05 PM): doing anything good tomorrow?
simply tezzy (8:11:11 PM): not yet
simply tezzy (8:11:21 PM): oh wait
simply tezzy (8:11:36 PM): i was just kidding about that. i thought your wrote "do anything good tomorrow"
conduit825 (8:12:04 PM): LOL
conduit825 (8:15:25 PM): I need me a haircut
conduit825 (8:15:27 PM): with dimensions
conduit825 (8:15:37 PM): haha that was dorky
simply tezzy (8:15:41 PM): h-what?
conduit825 (8:15:42 PM): dorkily delicious
conduit825 (8:15:53 PM): with layers or angles or both
simply tezzy (8:15:58 PM): scrumptiously scrotum-ed
conduit825 (8:16:02 PM): lol
simply tezzy (8:16:21 PM): hrm.
conduit825 (8:16:51 PM): no, maybe not yet
conduit825 (8:17:03 PM): cause I don't want my hair too short in the summer
conduit825 (8:17:08 PM): I won't want to have to do anything to it
conduit825 (8:17:25 PM): so maybe I need a not-straight-across haircut before school starts
simply tezzy (8:18:15 PM): that'll work
conduit825 (8:18:19 PM): bobblehead tezzys
conduit825 (8:18:23 PM): bobblebobblebobble
conduit825 (8:18:52 PM): I'll manufacture several
simply tezzy (8:19:00 PM): swizzle
conduit825 (8:19:02 PM): and I'll also wear shorts tomorrow
conduit825 (8:19:12 PM): have you ever tried to grab a wall?
conduit825 (8:19:14 PM): if doesn't work
conduit825 (8:19:18 PM): especially if the wall is behind you
conduit825 (8:20:01 PM): so if you're ever falling, don't try to grab onto the wall if there's nothing coming off of it to grab onto
conduit825 (8:20:04 PM): you'll fall
conduit825 (8:20:09 PM): a better bet would be to grab onto the nearest person
conduit825 (8:20:16 PM): a worse bet would be trying to grab onto the air
simply tezzy (8:20:41 PM): LOL
simply tezzy (8:20:44 PM): i do that...
simply tezzy (8:20:46 PM): too often
conduit825 (8:20:51 PM): LOL
simply tezzy (8:20:52 PM): i definitely know what you mean
conduit825 (8:20:53 PM): hahahaha
conduit825 (8:21:03 PM): I was bracing myself
conduit825 (8:21:09 PM): I was sitting, and I was shocked
conduit825 (8:21:12 PM): mentally
conduit825 (8:21:26 PM): so it was like "hhhho my god!"
conduit825 (8:21:30 PM): ::grabs wall behind her::
simply tezzy (8:21:33 PM): what?!
simply tezzy (8:21:36 PM): what is going on!?
conduit825 (8:21:53 PM): I read something shocking
conduit825 (8:21:58 PM): and so I was shocked
conduit825 (8:22:08 PM): so instinctively, I went to grab onto something
conduit825 (8:22:13 PM): "something" was the wall
conduit825 (8:22:22 PM): also I tried using my elbows to grab on
conduit825 (8:22:27 PM): but that definitely didn't work
simply tezzy (8:23:15 PM): when was this
simply tezzy (8:23:19 PM): it wasn't a brick wall right?
conduit825 (8:23:25 PM): right
conduit825 (8:23:26 PM): it was just now
conduit825 (8:23:30 PM): it was my bedroom wall
conduit825 (8:23:50 PM): it was at 8:14:47
simply tezzy (8:23:54 PM): whoa
simply tezzy (8:24:01 PM): who said shocking thing?
simply tezzy (8:24:11 PM): that would hAVE MADE, whoa caps lock, you fall over
conduit825 (8:24:12 PM): well it was shocking like "whoa I didn't see that coming!"
conduit825 (8:24:21 PM): not actually fall over
simply tezzy (8:24:21 PM): which was sarcasm?
conduit825 (8:24:23 PM): just grab something
simply tezzy (8:24:28 PM): towel rack?
conduit825 (8:24:35 PM): there is no towel rack in my room!
simply tezzy (8:25:41 PM): ::cries::
conduit825 (8:25:47 PM): don't cry!
conduit825 (8:25:51 PM): I'll make you a towel rack
simply tezzy (8:25:53 PM): i don't have one either
conduit825 (8:26:18 PM): we are towel rackless:-(
conduit825 (8:26:23 PM): rackless abandonment:-(
conduit825 (8:26:31 PM): that was an extremely rackless comment for me to say:-(
conduit825 (8:26:37 PM): I've never been so rackless in my life:-(
conduit825 (8:26:43 PM): someone could get hurt!
conduit825 (8:26:50 PM): but I guess everyone is rackless once in awhile
conduit825 (8:26:56 PM): when we're young, we don't need a rack
simply tezzy (8:27:01 PM): i don't have a rack
simply tezzy (8:27:03 PM): period
conduit825 (8:27:06 PM): we just throw them on the floor, throw the towels on the floor
conduit825 (8:27:13 PM): but then we get racks
simply tezzy (8:27:17 PM): you get a rack
conduit825 (8:27:18 PM): some people are still rackless
simply tezzy (8:27:20 PM): like me
conduit825 (8:27:21 PM): rackless abandonment
simply tezzy (8:27:32 PM): nah, that's the parents of people like me
simply tezzy (8:27:40 PM): and the skiers that get fined
conduit825 (8:27:40 PM): lol
simply tezzy (8:27:51 PM): for ending up in racks at the bottom of the hill
conduit825 (8:27:58 PM): I like downloading
conduit825 (8:28:02 PM): but it's unnerving
conduit825 (8:28:05 PM): have you ever downloaded?
simply tezzy (8:28:06 PM): i like unloading
simply tezzy (8:28:13 PM): downwards into the toilet
conduit825 (8:28:17 PM): LOL
simply tezzy (8:28:27 PM): downloaded what?
conduit825 (8:28:39 PM): when you ride the ski lift down the mountain, it's called "downloading"
simply tezzy (8:28:51 PM): i've always wanted to do that
simply tezzy (8:28:54 PM): my sister almost did it
simply tezzy (8:28:59 PM): cuz she got stuck in the seat
conduit825 (8:29:05 PM): LOL!!
simply tezzy (8:29:07 PM): they had to stop the lift for her
conduit825 (8:29:08 PM): bummer
conduit825 (8:29:10 PM): hahaha
simply tezzy (8:29:12 PM): i thought so too
conduit825 (8:29:18 PM): when I was in colorado, they had to stop the lift a lot
simply tezzy (8:29:18 PM): except i was already off the lift
conduit825 (8:29:22 PM): because my cousin was snowboarding and she was no good
simply tezzy (8:29:25 PM): LOL
conduit825 (8:29:30 PM): and she would grab onto me and my outher cousin and we'd fall over on her
simply tezzy (8:29:37 PM): and then you laugh at all the people who are sitting there waiting
conduit825 (8:29:43 PM): lol
simply tezzy (8:30:05 PM): i always run into the little 3 year-old in front of me, who stopped at the bottom of the top of the lift
conduit825 (8:30:10 PM): and then for the last run one day, my bad snowboarder cousin, my brother and I downloaded cause we were too tired or lazy
conduit825 (8:30:14 PM): and it was scary
conduit825 (8:30:20 PM): yah, that sucks
simply tezzy (8:30:21 PM): did you put the bar down?
conduit825 (8:30:25 PM): yes
conduit825 (8:30:32 PM): I always always always have the bar down
conduit825 (8:30:35 PM): I flip out if I don't
simply tezzy (8:30:35 PM): did you get a good view?
simply tezzy (8:30:39 PM): me too man
conduit825 (8:30:43 PM): just ask Evan, he experienced it first hand lol
conduit825 (8:30:49 PM): yeah, good view
simply tezzy (8:31:00 PM): did you hit him in the head with the bar?
conduit825 (8:31:05 PM): no
simply tezzy (8:31:07 PM): booo
simply tezzy (8:31:09 PM): i mean
simply tezzy (8:31:10 PM): .
simply tezzy (8:31:14 PM): i'm just kidding.
simply tezzy (8:31:15 PM): ;-P
conduit825 (8:31:20 PM): but I have to have someone else but the bar down, and he didn't do it, so I was like "bar bar bar bar bar bar bar bar bar"
simply tezzy (8:31:24 PM): my mom hit me with the bar
conduit825 (8:31:29 PM): lol
simply tezzy (8:31:44 PM): until he did it, so you'd shut up
conduit825 (8:32:04 PM): when I had my skies on the foot rest bar in CO, my cousin lifted the bar up and my skies were not off
simply tezzy (8:32:13 PM): oh no
conduit825 (8:32:14 PM): and so they went vertical
conduit825 (8:32:18 PM): when I could finally get them off
simply tezzy (8:32:28 PM): and you were all like, "OH NO, I"M WOBBLY!!"
conduit825 (8:32:32 PM): yah
conduit825 (8:32:45 PM): the same girl pinched my leg in the seat divider of the bar too
conduit825 (8:32:47 PM): wtf man
conduit825 (8:32:49 PM): she's out to get me
simply tezzy (8:32:51 PM): ouchies
simply tezzy (8:32:55 PM): i sat on one of those
simply tezzy (8:32:56 PM): it hurt
simply tezzy (8:32:59 PM): they stopped the lift
conduit825 (8:33:02 PM): lol
conduit825 (8:34:04 PM): I got so much better at skiing when we were in cO
conduit825 (8:34:05 PM): CO
conduit825 (8:34:13 PM): Carbon Monoxide! Colorado!
simply tezzy (8:34:55 PM): colorado is made of carbon monoxide?!?!?!??!?
simply tezzy (8:35:00 PM): GET THE CHILDREN OUT!!
simply tezzy (8:35:02 PM): QUICK!!!
conduit825 (8:35:07 PM): and the adults too
simply tezzy (8:35:15 PM): yeah, they can come too
conduit825 (8:35:24 PM): cool
simply tezzy (8:35:25 PM): ;-P
conduit825 (8:35:26 PM): and the animals?
simply tezzy (8:35:30 PM): sure why not
conduit825 (8:35:33 PM): the cows
simply tezzy (8:35:33 PM): BUT NOT THE TREES!
conduit825 (8:35:34 PM): and the goats
conduit825 (8:35:36 PM): MERRRRRRR
simply tezzy (8:35:42 PM): of course the goats
conduit825 (8:35:49 PM): lol
simply tezzy (8:36:02 PM): goats before children
conduit825 (8:36:06 PM): lololol
conduit825 (8:36:08 PM): before babies, at least
simply tezzy (8:36:11 PM): ok
simply tezzy (8:36:15 PM): plan:
conduit825 (8:36:20 PM): hahahahahaha
simply tezzy (8:36:20 PM): THROW BABIES
conduit825 (8:36:23 PM): LOL
conduit825 (8:36:30 PM): BABY GOATS YAY
simply tezzy (8:36:32 PM): oh percy
simply tezzy (8:36:35 PM): oh cocoa
conduit825 (8:36:38 PM): oh Jorge
simply tezzy (8:36:45 PM): +D
conduit825 (8:36:49 PM): :-D
conduit825 (8:36:54 PM): you should have heard his speech at the banquet
conduit825 (8:36:57 PM): it was so funny
simply tezzy (8:36:58 PM): good?
conduit825 (8:37:04 PM): he did a comparison
simply tezzy (8:37:08 PM): of?
conduit825 (8:37:12 PM): last year to this year
simply tezzy (8:37:18 PM): and
conduit825 (8:37:29 PM): "last year, we wore COLORFUL TIES! <>"
simply tezzy (8:37:36 PM): LOL
simply tezzy (8:37:40 PM): i can see him doing that
conduit825 (8:37:46 PM): "last year... no Davey. :-( This year?... Davey!"
simply tezzy (8:37:57 PM): that too
conduit825 (8:38:29 PM): so it's like
conduit825 (8:38:31 PM): first save the goats
conduit825 (8:38:35 PM): then the babies
conduit825 (8:38:37 PM): then the cows
conduit825 (8:38:40 PM): then the other chldren and people
conduit825 (8:38:42 PM): and the old people
simply tezzy (8:38:52 PM): but they can't bring their dentures
conduit825 (8:38:56 PM): LOL
conduit825 (8:38:58 PM): hahahahaha
conduit825 (8:38:59 PM): why?
simply tezzy (8:39:11 PM): cuz then they'll eat the cows
conduit825 (8:39:16 PM): lololol
simply tezzy (8:39:17 PM): and we need the cows to live
conduit825 (8:39:20 PM): greatest conversation ever!
simply tezzy (8:39:23 PM): shyeah
conduit825 (8:41:03 PM): :-D
simply tezzy (8:41:31 PM): i think i'll just quote the whole thing

independence

2004-05-09T22:25:00.000-04:00

There are two totally different ways to look at independence.
I came home, and first thought, Wow! My independence is being compromised! because my mom wanted me home by midnight...
but at the same time, I realized that I have to learn how to be independent. I've been doing stuff around the house: learned how to mow the lawn, helped cook, done the dishes, etc. and I'm beginning to realize that by doing all this stuff in my own house, I'm learning what I will earn/gain/lose from being independent. Eventually, I'm gonna have to do all this myself, so I might as well get used to it now.
My goal in life is to be able to be entirely independent: to not have to rely on anyone for anything. At the same time, I want to be able to have someone that I can rely on, and for that I'm going to have to compromise my independence.

I'm also gonna start counting how many books I read of my own accord this calendar year. As of now my count is up to eight.

Edit: I just remembered that I forgot to include a book, so make that nine.

the end?

2004-05-05T14:49:00.000-04:00

this year is wrapping up so fast. it took me by surprise. after breakfast this morning, jen, lisa and i were sitting in the room, and jen goes, "it just hit me that we're gonna be gone for 4 months." it's just so weird. cuz the whole year i've been thinking, oh yay, i get to go home and see my friends that i've left behind. and now it's going to be the opposite, i'll be at home wanting to come back and see my roomies, and all the other friends that i've made in the past few months. i've found awesome groups of friends both back home and here at bentley. it really has become my second home. i like that. and i'll miss it.

i love that book

2004-05-02T20:46:00.000-04:00

You're Watership Down!

by Richard Adams

Though many think of you as a bit young, even childish, you're
actually incredibly deep and complex. You show people the need to rethink their
assumptions, and confront them on everything from how they think to where they
build their houses. You might be one of the greatest people of all time. You'd
be recognized as such if you weren't always talking about talking rabbits.

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

only in college...

2004-04-29T21:55:00.000-04:00

so i randomly was in the mood to play soccer, so i imed a bunch of people, we found a soccer ball and went and played soccer for an hour and a half. it was great fun. so spontaneous, so awesome.

my favorite conversation with jon.

2004-04-28T19:20:00.000-04:00

ender694 (11:58:19 PM): you fucking whore enjoy coillens??? i swear. you have been fucking avoifin everything i have been doing toworse you. you whore

Auto response from simply tezzy (11:58:19 PM): out with the girls (jen lisa and ally) to jon's. then going to BREAFAST BY MOONLIGHT at 11.30 (steph and becky better be there! val too!)
possibly stopping down at copley north to see our room for next year...
and then it's a sleeping =D

simply tezzy (12:14:20 AM): i'm sorry if i wanted to see becky and laura cuz i like them, and that's where they were going.
simply tezzy (12:14:55 AM): and curious to see who was there.
simply tezzy (12:15:01 AM): we didn't go for long at all
ender694 (12:15:28 AM): you fuck someon e
simply tezzy (12:15:34 AM): obviously not
simply tezzy (12:15:51 AM): and besides what would you have done if i had
ender694 (12:17:31 AM): hoped it ment more then when i penitrated you
simply tezzy (12:17:45 AM): what?
ender694 (12:18:17 AM): simply tezzy (12:14:55 AM): and curious to see who was there.
simply tezzy (12:15:01 AM): we didn't go for long at all
ender694 (12:15:28 AM): you fuck someon e
simply tezzy (12:15:34 AM): obviously not
simply tezzy (12:15:51 AM): and besides what would you have done if i had
ender694 (12:17:31 AM): hoped it ment more then when i penitrated you
simply tezzy (12:18:42 AM): i didn't have sex with anyone
simply tezzy (12:18:46 AM): and it's not like you can tell me what to do
simply tezzy (12:18:50 AM): good night
simply tezzy (12:18:53 AM): sweet dreams
ender694 (12:20:10 AM): fuck you whore

Auto response from simply tezzy (12:20:10 AM): getting a good night's sleep.
steph or becky, gimme a call in the morning... cuz i don't know where to go for the scholar-athlete thingamabob.

ender694 (12:20:57 AM): fuck you you whore. surpised you did not fill your pussy with like the first persons duck you found
ender694 (12:24:43 AM): you are a birty whore. why doi i still love you so much????????????????? i know that you were getting wet at the swim team part
ender694 (10:56:47 AM): how was the swim team party?
simply tezzy (10:57:04 AM): i went for 15 minutes
simply tezzy (10:57:21 AM): becky laura and i stood there, talked a little and then decided we were bored so we left
ender694 (10:57:50 AM): ...

Auto response from simply tezzy (10:57:50 AM): shower.

ender694 (11:00:35 AM): sure
ender694 (1:32:55 PM): what is weight testing??
simply tezzy (1:33:18 PM): so we have a weight lifting program for the summer
ender694 (1:34:05 PM): o
ender694 (2:17:40 PM): short trip to the weight room
simply tezzy (2:17:59 PM): yep
simply tezzy (2:18:01 PM): we're lazy
ender694 (2:18:42 PM): sure
simply tezzy (2:19:25 PM): sure what?!
simply tezzy (2:19:42 PM): what did you think we went and had a quickie or something?! you're seriously fucked up
ender694 (2:19:49 PM): sure
simply tezzy (2:19:56 PM): ok. shut up
ender694 (2:20:08 PM): to quick for you?
simply tezzy (2:20:17 PM): what?
ender694 (2:20:52 PM): sure
ender694 (2:23:41 PM): like my profiel
ender694 (2:25:14 PM): ya you do
(note: profile says that i think he's seriously fucked up)
simply tezzy (2:26:15 PM): of course i do.
ender694 (2:53:32 PM): so what are you doing now? besides... you know, whoring
simply tezzy (2:53:57 PM): about to be studying
ender694 (2:54:16 PM): psh. whatever
ender694 (2:56:35 PM): not sure why i even try anymore
simply tezzy (2:57:27 PM): try what?
ender694 (2:58:08 PM): talking to you. trying to be your friend
simply tezzy (2:58:38 PM): well calling me a whore and accusing me of fooling around with someone on the swimteam is not exactly trying to be my friend.
ender694 (2:59:29 PM): i am trying to talk to you and pretend that everything is fine and ok. even when you just disgust me as a human being these days
simply tezzy (2:59:44 PM): i haven't done anything!!
ender694 (2:59:59 PM): you do everything without even relizing it
simply tezzy (3:00:06 PM): like what?
ender694 (3:00:30 PM): don't worry yourself about it. return to whoever's dick you are sucking
simply tezzy (3:00:38 PM): no one's!
ender694 (3:01:22 PM): sure
ender694 (3:02:02 PM): psh
ender694 (3:07:30 PM): you read my profile again? or do you jsut skip it these days?
(note: his profile changed to saying that "someone i used to love" rather than "tezzy (whore)" thinks i'm seriously fucked up)
simply tezzy (3:07:50 PM): yes i read it
(note: my profile says "i don't understand!" under current mood)
ender694 (3:08:39 PM): why don;t you understand?
simply tezzy (3:09:07 PM): i don't understand why you're saying that i'm a bad person, when i haven't done anything.
simply tezzy (3:09:17 PM): i haven't gone and fooled around with anyone
simply tezzy (3:09:23 PM): i haven't lied to you
simply tezzy (3:09:30 PM): i just don't get where you're coming from
ender694 (3:09:38 PM): good
ender694 (3:10:28 PM): well. maybe you will relize what i am saying if you think back on things. or forward. or if you get off that dick for just a secodn
simply tezzy (3:11:22 PM): WHAT DICK?!
ender694 (3:11:36 PM): oh i am sorry. is your pussy to loose to feel it??
simply tezzy (3:12:07 PM): WHAT?!
ender694 (3:14:46 PM): sure
simply tezzy (3:15:02 PM): how is that an valid response?
simply tezzy (3:15:06 PM): a*
ender694 (3:15:49 PM): well when a pussy is as loose as yourse. then you would tend not to feel a dick inside of you
simply tezzy (3:16:25 PM): ok. but i'm not fucking anyone.
ender694 (3:16:39 PM): sure
simply tezzy (3:16:57 PM): I"M NOT
simply tezzy (3:17:05 PM): what does it take to prove it?
ender694 (3:18:24 PM): nothing to prove i thought
ender694 (3:21:39 PM): guess i was wrong
ender694 (3:21:42 PM): or wasn't
ender694 (3:24:47 PM): confused yet?
simply tezzy (3:24:56 PM): whatever.
ender694 (3:25:19 PM): oh i am sorry. did i interupt your orgasm
(note: i put in my profile that i got a 3.7 in expos)
ender694 (4:35:12 PM): i told you to take her
simply tezzy (4:35:27 PM): =DDDDD
simply tezzy (4:35:30 PM): thanks
simply tezzy (4:35:31 PM): =DD
ender694 (4:36:54 PM): you fuck someone for that grade?
simply tezzy (4:37:10 PM): NO
simply tezzy (4:37:22 PM): oh yes, i had sex with my female teacher for that grade
ender694 (4:38:28 PM): maybe her husband?
ender694 (4:38:28 PM): or maybe some kid in your class
ender694 (4:38:35 PM): to get him to do your papers
simply tezzy (4:38:53 PM): LOL
simply tezzy (4:38:54 PM): yes.
simply tezzy (4:38:56 PM): that must be it
ender694 (4:39:22 PM): see. i know
ender694 (4:46:11 PM): ya getting pritty pictures in my head now
ender694 (4:49:16 PM): what a lovely entry
ender694 (4:49:54 PM): truely. lovely
ender694 (4:52:45 PM): whore. your pussy id really loose. even the first time we had sex it was loose
simply tezzy (4:52:58 PM): ok
ender694 (4:53:28 PM): u care. alot. that is why you posted our convo on your blog. so you can show everyone how bad of a person i am
simply tezzy (4:54:22 PM): no, just how illogical
ender694 (4:55:18 PM): that was your favorit conversation. that is funny
simply tezzy (4:55:54 PM): it was sarcasm
ender694 (4:56:24 PM): i think i need to take a shower. i can barely stand talking to you these days. just as you can barely stand being in my presence, even when i am drunk
simply tezzy (4:56:48 PM): especially not even
simply tezzy (4:57:11 PM): i prefer being in your presence when you're not drunk is what i'm trying to say
ender694 (4:57:19 PM): why
ender694 (4:57:19 PM): ?
simply tezzy (4:57:35 PM): because of the way you act.
ender694 (4:57:44 PM): how do i act when i am drunk?
ender694 (4:57:49 PM): how did i act last night?
simply tezzy (4:58:05 PM): i dunno
simply tezzy (4:58:08 PM): it was just annoying
simply tezzy (4:58:14 PM): cuz you kept saying you weren't drunk
simply tezzy (4:58:18 PM): but you obviously were
simply tezzy (4:58:30 PM): and i told you to stop drinking and you threw a case of cds at me
simply tezzy (4:58:32 PM): hard
ender694 (4:58:49 PM): what case of cds??
simply tezzy (4:58:56 PM): maybe it was dvd
simply tezzy (4:58:58 PM): s
simply tezzy (4:58:59 PM): i dunno
ender694 (4:59:04 PM): big black thing?
ender694 (4:59:32 PM): when was this??
simply tezzy (5:00:02 PM): no it was empty cd's
simply tezzy (5:00:09 PM): blank cd's, rather
ender694 (5:00:54 PM): oh
ender694 (5:01:23 PM): when was this?
ender694 (5:01:27 PM): cause i so do not rember it
simply tezzy (5:01:28 PM): last night
simply tezzy (5:01:33 PM): in your room
ender694 (5:01:34 PM): i mean like when last night
ender694 (5:01:38 PM): when in my room
simply tezzy (5:01:44 PM): i don't know
simply tezzy (5:01:49 PM): later on
simply tezzy (5:01:52 PM): cuz alfie was there
ender694 (5:02:04 PM): must have not thrown it hard enough then
ender694 (5:02:20 PM): ahh that is sweet. you make special note of when max walks in the room
simply tezzy (5:02:24 PM): cuz he handed them to you, and then like 2 minutes later you threw them at me
ender694 (5:03:31 PM): ohwell. guess then you will never stop by again
ender694 (5:03:34 PM): ::shrug::
ender694 (5:03:59 PM): i most likely threw it at you because you were pretending to care about me
simply tezzy (5:04:48 PM): cuz i told you to stop drinking? cuz last time i didn't tell you to stop drinking you slit your wrists with broken glass?!?
ender694 (5:05:03 PM): because you stopped loving me
ender694 (5:05:07 PM): that is why i tryed that
ender694 (5:05:20 PM): because you did not want to be with me and that destroyed my world
simply tezzy (5:05:54 PM): so now you're getting back at me?
simply tezzy (5:05:58 PM): by calling me a whore?
ender694 (5:06:19 PM): sure
ender694 (5:06:23 PM): sounds like a good reason
ender694 (5:06:27 PM): or excuse
ender694 (5:10:39 PM): doesn't it?
simply tezzy (5:10:49 PM): sure why not
ender694 (5:11:05 PM): unfortunently it does not really effect you anymore
ender694 (5:12:44 PM): so i need to find something new
ender694 (5:16:08 PM): right?
ender694 (5:16:16 PM): or are you giving me the silent treatment
simply tezzy (5:17:10 PM): no, i just don't know what to say
ender694 (5:17:42 PM): about what??
ender694 (5:18:08 PM): my hatred for you bebcause you caused me extream pain? or about me calling you a whore?
ender694 (5:20:09 PM): ???
simply tezzy (5:20:51 PM): i dunno
simply tezzy (5:20:54 PM): about everything
ender694 (5:21:13 PM): bet you regret the last 6 months
simply tezzy (5:21:20 PM): no
simply tezzy (5:21:22 PM): not at all
ender694 (5:21:42 PM): then what
simply tezzy (5:22:06 PM): i don't regret it at all
ender694 (5:22:45 PM): then what. you can not say that you are angry with me or mad at me. or hate me??
simply tezzy (5:23:12 PM): nope
simply tezzy (5:23:17 PM): just don't understand your logic
ender694 (5:23:30 PM): and so what are you going to do about it???
simply tezzy (5:23:43 PM): can't do anything
ender694 (5:25:01 PM): .....
ender694 (5:25:02 PM): sure
ender694 (5:29:25 PM): i thought i was a happy drunk last night
simply tezzy (5:29:33 PM): yes, kinda
simply tezzy (5:29:41 PM): more so than usual
ender694 (5:29:54 PM): yet you still hate being with me
simply tezzy (5:30:05 PM): you were kinda annoying
ender694 (5:30:22 PM): just because i was saying that i was not drunk?
simply tezzy (5:30:35 PM): i dunno, i don't remember, all i knew was that you were annoying me.
ender694 (5:30:53 PM): i saw your face when you first came in. you looked unhappy
ender694 (5:31:11 PM): i do not think that you smilled at all the entire night untill you meet up with the swim team people
simply tezzy (5:31:21 PM): maybe. maybe not
ender694 (5:32:54 PM): wow. i am to tired from doing nothing all day to even bother aurguing that you love the swim team more then anyone else
simply tezzy (5:33:03 PM): ok
ender694 (5:33:25 PM): i mean. as soon as i say "swim team" around you. you automaticly smile
simply tezzy (5:33:32 PM): ok
ender694 (5:34:27 PM): you know what? get drunk. or stay sober. and go over to that room in colins. and just have them all fuck you. cause i know you want them too. you want to be in a gangbang and all your holes penitrated
ender694 (5:36:57 PM): sound like a plan whore???
simply tezzy (5:37:19 PM): sure
ender694 (5:37:41 PM): hmh
simply tezzy (5:37:49 PM): wanna come and stick your dick in my eyesocket?
ender694 (5:38:24 PM): you don't want anything to do with my dick
ender694 (5:41:20 PM): so stop fucking with me
simply tezzy (5:42:03 PM): i was so obviously kidding
ender694 (5:42:27 PM): psh. oh i know. i knew as soon as you said my dick
ender694 (5:48:51 PM): love these vividing responses
ender694 (5:51:51 PM): they are so riviting
simply tezzy (5:52:22 PM): i'm sorry, i have to study.
ender694 (5:52:48 PM): ya bullshit. you don't study. you just ta;l tp people online
ender694 (5:53:07 PM): disgusting, every part of you
ender694 (5:56:31 PM): oh wow

Auto response from simply tezzy (5:56:31 PM): iruzekara (5:08:16 PM): ::superuberesthugw00t::

i <3 alex dancho!

ender694 (5:56:34 PM): it is amazing
ender694 (5:56:45 PM): i thought you did not do that <3 thing
ender694 (5:56:55 PM): you found someone else already????
ender694 (5:57:04 PM): you really are a mother fucking whore
ender694 (5:57:12 PM): you never did that heart thing for me
ender694 (5:57:19 PM): even when we were going out
ender694 (5:57:24 PM): seriously what the fuck
ender694 (5:57:32 PM): you are fucking filth
ender694 (5:57:33 PM): trash
ender694 (5:57:38 PM): no wait. less
ender694 (5:59:20 PM): i mean, seriously
ender694 (5:59:25 PM): WHAT THE FUCK
ender694 (5:59:53 PM): i knew you liked him that way ever since you were all stary eyed and like "ohh oand he played to the crowd"
ender694 (5:59:58 PM): oh. no response
ender694 (6:01:20 PM): no justification???
ender694 (6:01:23 PM): nothing?
ender694 (6:01:30 PM): no "no jon, i do not love him"
ender694 (6:04:31 PM): guess hugs are better then mine
ender694 (6:07:41 PM): or maybe you just fucking talk to him when argue
ender694 (6:12:12 PM): seriously. what the fuck

Auto response from simply tezzy (6:12:12 PM): iruzekara (5:08:16 PM): ::superuberesthugw00t::

i <3 alex dancho!

ender694 (6:12:28 PM): you never even put an excamation mark after saying you loved me
ender694 (6:12:36 PM): yoou never used the <3
ender694 (6:12:49 PM): great. thanks alot....were tis that fucking piece of glass
ender694 (6:13:17 PM): no can't do that
ender694 (6:13:21 PM): but what the fuck
ender694 (6:13:28 PM): so you are inlove with him now??
ender694 (6:18:59 PM): you do not really waste much time
(note: jon calls and asks about the <3, he says that <3 is the same as saying love)
ender694 (7:10:35 PM): what are you trying to prove with your blog?

Auto response from simply tezzy (7:10:35 PM): reading. because i want to and i can.

ender694 (7:10:41 PM): that i am an asshole?
ender694 (7:10:46 PM): that i am controling?
ender694 signed off at 7:17:35 PM.

yay for bentley!

2004-04-27T21:29:00.000-04:00

HAHAHA!
so not only are we on the list of most sexually active colleges
but we are also on the list of top party schools.
swizzle.